What are you looking for?

I've been single now for almost 2 and a half years, and it's been a weird period in my life. I feel like a half of me is missing, and I miss the company.. the connection.. the affection.. someone constant in my life. I will say while single, i've been able to take a good hard look at myself, my priorities, and my goals/dreams, and really find out what i'm about (i suggest you all do the same). So it's not all bad.

I tried to give a couple of girls (read: "girls" not women) a chance, but they were stuck in "neutral" about diff things. Stuff like the old "my ex is an asshole but i still care", the effed up priorities, and so on. One girl I almost opened my heart to, and ended up just discarding it due to the former. It was the first time since the last woman I loved that i had even tried to care about someone on that level.

I even caught feelings for someone that initially I had pegged as unlikely. Just kinda happened. Turns out she's an awesome person, and she'd be really cool to be with, but she's really not payin me attention/taking me seriously. (On some friend zone/ "gayfriend" shit lol)

I hear women say there's no good men, and that the ones that are, are either gay or taken.. aren't looking in the right places. As cliche as this may sound, most times we're right under your nose. If some women would get past their unrealistic (superficial/fleeting) images of what they consider a "good man", and realize that "10s" in looks don't always add up to 10s in the mind, spirit and heart.

You can't help who you're attracted to, but when you're focusing on attraction more than the other parts of a person's worth, something's wrong. If you're still stuck on someone/something that's hindering you from having a HEALTHY relationship with someone else, you really need to reassess what you're doing with yourself.

No matter who you are, there is someone awesome willing to love you and really care for you the way you know deep inside you need to be loved.

I'm just sayin.

Goodnight.

-Steelo